So, I should be finishing up my paper but...I can't stop crying. I should hold this all in and suck it up.. but I need to get it out. I have been so caught up in being sad, being happy, being every possible emotion and .. ughh, I cannot take it anymore. I do not want to be 1500 miles away from trevor, I do not want to be 3 hours away from my family... I do not want to do it anymore. I want to be at home. I am half tempted to call him and talk to him, but he went to sleep and it's not like it would do anything or he could say anything.. maybe having a video chat wasn't the best idea.. now I am all upset. UGH, why why why does everything FINALLY feel like it's going great, and then it all gets pulled out from underneath me.. I am sooo frustrated, I think my body temperature is raised like no other..
I know no one said it was going to be easy, but i don't quite get it.. and right now i am not looking for some bs reason.. b/c it doesnt change anything. I guess I will be done ranting, throwing a fit..complaining, doing what i do best. finishing this stupid paper and going to bed, or maybe showering and going to bed if there is any time left.. so over this.. over it over it over it!!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Woah, November Already? Thanksgiving Over??
Alright, so I've not written in forever but life is busy..so don't expect so much from me.
Thanksgiving is pretty much over, it was a decent day. I always enjoy spending time with the family and hearing how everyone has been. Went to French Lick for lunch w/ Gma, Carl, and Mom-- lindsey and john were supposed to go but my poor darling seeeester has a horrible case of strep :( But then after that mom and I walked around to some shops and checked stuff out.. afterwards we went to Michelle's to play games and visit, ate dinner, and hung out some more. Got to see my babygirl again, which of course made me happy :) The day before I got to be Emma's Special Person for Kindergarten at Special Person Day! Once again, Lindsey was supposed to go but since she was sick, I covered for her! And I guess Emmy didn't know I was going to be home from college either, so was excited to know I was going to be home and go..so that made me happy :)
The weather has been so nasty out! I am normally pretty flexible with weather.. it's just kind of like it is what it is.. but since I am at home, I don't have any of my clothes that I normally would have.. like sweatshirts, rain boots, bubble umbrella, etc. so I have been on the struggle bus! It was sleeting on our way home, but thinking that way turn to snow? Not totally sure about the rest of the weekend, I am just in hopes it's not nasty out when I go back to campus.. which may play a factor in if I go back Sunday night or Monday morning.
School is going alright.. I am kind of in that "I'm ready to pull my hair out" part of the semester! Definitely can't believe it's almost over.. basically have two weeks of classes and then it's finals week! It's exciting, yet stressful thinking that thats all we have left! I have felt like I have tried a lot harder with school, but I don't feel like my grades are showing it so much which is really frustrating. A lot of my teachers grade kind of hard this semester, plus we haven't had a lot of grades. My favorite class is Courts, but she is very literal and strict when it comes to her guidelines and ways of doing things..which is fine but for some reason I have been having trouble getting the format down properly for her extra credit... so I have spent time writing 2 2 page papers that could've given me an extra 5 points a piece.. but I didn't get it because I put one extra line in.. I guess I messed it up, but I don't know.. so so soooo frustrating! On the bright side, I was really worried about my two tests that I had just taken, and I found out that I got an 81% on my Corrections Test, which I will take a B. I blame the low B b/c my teacher always gives us the essay questions a few days before...normally 6 and we study all of them, well this time she gave us 4 and not until literally TEN hours before the test. It's like excuse me??? I was SO mad. But whatever, I'll take my B-. As for my research methods test, 82% Baby, wooooohooooo! I couldn't believe it, I was SO excited. I was afraid I failed, so that was the most pleasant surprise ever! So Right now, I'm slightly frustrated with my grades.. but we have finals still and a lot of them have either a big paper due or project as well so I'm not freaking out yet, lol. If I figured right, with a dropped test in Corrections & Courts I have a C in both of those, a B in Research Methods and a B+ in Personality Psychology.. I am really hoping that I can get an A in Research Methods and Personality Psych, and a B in both Corrections and Courts, but we will see. Fingers crossed!!
Well, despite all the good news with school... that obviously means that something else has to pick up the slack or something has to suck... well that would be the love of my life moving 20 hours away to Wyoming for a new job.... yeah... I said Wyoming. Ah, so much has happened but a speedy update.. two weeks ago I went to Newton and met some of his friends, watched him play football, saw his high school, and met pretty much all of his family...which was a fairly big step since other than high school girlfriends I was the first one that he brought home..so made me happy and feel special :) But yea.. then a week later, find out "really really bad news" and yeah..so here I am at home in Loogootee and he is in Casper... way way way too far. I added a countdown widget on my mac.. so right now 98 days and I will see him. It would be amazing if it was before, if not then for sure I will see him for Spring Break, I am planning on flying out there if I can get everything settled right. But, I am definitely kind of down about him moving, but I of course want what is best for him and am going to support him in anything he does. I sent with him some pics and goodies, so hopefully he won't forget about me haha :) But, we actually decided to not break up and are going to do a long distance relationship..which at first I was kind of worried just of how it would work and everything and after we talked about it.. I felt so much better. I dont have a single doubt in my mind that it won't work out and it has made me appreciate so much that I trust him 100% .. it's also made me realize how much I care about him, which I am absolutely crazy about him..I've definitely fallen for him. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met, he's perfect for me... I definitely feel like we "mesh" well together (clueless couldnt have said it better, ha) so I am looking forward to our skype dates, cheesy texts, nightly phone goodnight calls, and countdowns until I see him.. we're willing to try anything to make this work, and thankfully we are both in it 100% so it's going to work out.. hopefully we also figure out something to be together in the future..wherever that may be. But for now, I'll take a spring break trip to Wyoming and a month there this summer.
Well, I am going to try to play Sims 3 on my computer if it won't be lame.. but that's an understatement since I always have trouble playing it on here.. not sure why. Don't really feel like switching mom computers just to play. I should be a good student and take my psych quiz that's due tomorrow by 5, but I'd rather be immature and lay in bed, jam out to music and play sims :)
So yeah.. not the most entertaining speech.. but pretty sure no one even reads my blog.. haha.. ohhh well!
Loveeee Ali Kate
Thanksgiving is pretty much over, it was a decent day. I always enjoy spending time with the family and hearing how everyone has been. Went to French Lick for lunch w/ Gma, Carl, and Mom-- lindsey and john were supposed to go but my poor darling seeeester has a horrible case of strep :( But then after that mom and I walked around to some shops and checked stuff out.. afterwards we went to Michelle's to play games and visit, ate dinner, and hung out some more. Got to see my babygirl again, which of course made me happy :) The day before I got to be Emma's Special Person for Kindergarten at Special Person Day! Once again, Lindsey was supposed to go but since she was sick, I covered for her! And I guess Emmy didn't know I was going to be home from college either, so was excited to know I was going to be home and go..so that made me happy :)
The weather has been so nasty out! I am normally pretty flexible with weather.. it's just kind of like it is what it is.. but since I am at home, I don't have any of my clothes that I normally would have.. like sweatshirts, rain boots, bubble umbrella, etc. so I have been on the struggle bus! It was sleeting on our way home, but thinking that way turn to snow? Not totally sure about the rest of the weekend, I am just in hopes it's not nasty out when I go back to campus.. which may play a factor in if I go back Sunday night or Monday morning.
School is going alright.. I am kind of in that "I'm ready to pull my hair out" part of the semester! Definitely can't believe it's almost over.. basically have two weeks of classes and then it's finals week! It's exciting, yet stressful thinking that thats all we have left! I have felt like I have tried a lot harder with school, but I don't feel like my grades are showing it so much which is really frustrating. A lot of my teachers grade kind of hard this semester, plus we haven't had a lot of grades. My favorite class is Courts, but she is very literal and strict when it comes to her guidelines and ways of doing things..which is fine but for some reason I have been having trouble getting the format down properly for her extra credit... so I have spent time writing 2 2 page papers that could've given me an extra 5 points a piece.. but I didn't get it because I put one extra line in.. I guess I messed it up, but I don't know.. so so soooo frustrating! On the bright side, I was really worried about my two tests that I had just taken, and I found out that I got an 81% on my Corrections Test, which I will take a B. I blame the low B b/c my teacher always gives us the essay questions a few days before...normally 6 and we study all of them, well this time she gave us 4 and not until literally TEN hours before the test. It's like excuse me??? I was SO mad. But whatever, I'll take my B-. As for my research methods test, 82% Baby, wooooohooooo! I couldn't believe it, I was SO excited. I was afraid I failed, so that was the most pleasant surprise ever! So Right now, I'm slightly frustrated with my grades.. but we have finals still and a lot of them have either a big paper due or project as well so I'm not freaking out yet, lol. If I figured right, with a dropped test in Corrections & Courts I have a C in both of those, a B in Research Methods and a B+ in Personality Psychology.. I am really hoping that I can get an A in Research Methods and Personality Psych, and a B in both Corrections and Courts, but we will see. Fingers crossed!!
Well, despite all the good news with school... that obviously means that something else has to pick up the slack or something has to suck... well that would be the love of my life moving 20 hours away to Wyoming for a new job.... yeah... I said Wyoming. Ah, so much has happened but a speedy update.. two weeks ago I went to Newton and met some of his friends, watched him play football, saw his high school, and met pretty much all of his family...which was a fairly big step since other than high school girlfriends I was the first one that he brought home..so made me happy and feel special :) But yea.. then a week later, find out "really really bad news" and yeah..so here I am at home in Loogootee and he is in Casper... way way way too far. I added a countdown widget on my mac.. so right now 98 days and I will see him. It would be amazing if it was before, if not then for sure I will see him for Spring Break, I am planning on flying out there if I can get everything settled right. But, I am definitely kind of down about him moving, but I of course want what is best for him and am going to support him in anything he does. I sent with him some pics and goodies, so hopefully he won't forget about me haha :) But, we actually decided to not break up and are going to do a long distance relationship..which at first I was kind of worried just of how it would work and everything and after we talked about it.. I felt so much better. I dont have a single doubt in my mind that it won't work out and it has made me appreciate so much that I trust him 100% .. it's also made me realize how much I care about him, which I am absolutely crazy about him..I've definitely fallen for him. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met, he's perfect for me... I definitely feel like we "mesh" well together (clueless couldnt have said it better, ha) so I am looking forward to our skype dates, cheesy texts, nightly phone goodnight calls, and countdowns until I see him.. we're willing to try anything to make this work, and thankfully we are both in it 100% so it's going to work out.. hopefully we also figure out something to be together in the future..wherever that may be. But for now, I'll take a spring break trip to Wyoming and a month there this summer.
Well, I am going to try to play Sims 3 on my computer if it won't be lame.. but that's an understatement since I always have trouble playing it on here.. not sure why. Don't really feel like switching mom computers just to play. I should be a good student and take my psych quiz that's due tomorrow by 5, but I'd rather be immature and lay in bed, jam out to music and play sims :)
So yeah.. not the most entertaining speech.. but pretty sure no one even reads my blog.. haha.. ohhh well!
Loveeee Ali Kate
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