Hey Finals Week!

So, the last time I wrote I was having a hard time with everything. I wasn't feeling all that well along with a mix of other things. Well a lot has changed since then thankfully :) I hung out with Jillian all weekend, which was a fun time. We decided to rearrange the room, it had been about 2 months so we were long overdue! ha. I like our setup, I think she does too :) Also participated in Angelfest on Friday at the Boys and Girls Club, LAE had a table. Overall that event went well, we got done really early though, about an hour and a half but I think the kids there were happy and everything so that's what matters! It was definitely a great feeling to see the kids smiling and having fun and being able to get Christmas gifts that they might have not been able to get otherwise.

Yesterday, J and I went to a fitness class since it is free fitness week, and well wow.. It was called Extreme Fitness, and BOOOOY did they mean it! I was actually only able to do it for 30 minutes before I felt like I was going to pass out and I couldn't breathe and then my wonderful roomie checked on me to make sure I was okay and got our stuff and then left early with me. I guess they base their class off of something called Crossfit...well unless you're hardcore I don't recommend this! It hurts sooo bad just to move, lol. I can't tell you the last time I have had this much pain in my butt, thighs, legs, etc. I mean no pain, no gain... but I wouldn't mind being able to walk normally, lol. So, I slept with a heating pad last night and did stretches before I went to bed and when I got up this morning. I know J made a special trip to walmart to buy a heating pad and some bengay. Considering getting out my bengay, but that would basically consist of dipping my lower half of my body in it, ha.

I planned on going to all about arms today, but decided I was awfully sore and didn't know if I could actually do anything, so took today off. Tomorrow they have another session, so I am going to do the all about arms then, and then there is also Fab Ride, which I really want to do because it is 45 minutes of spin and 15 minutes of an abdominal workout. Then tomorrow evening is Midnight Breakfast, which as always it is a ritual to have some fun before going, so I'm looking forward to sailing the seas with my fab roomie ;) Andd Wednesday is Work Lunch, Courts final, anddd Yoga! Thursday I am taking a day off if I don't find a class I would like to do, and my research methods final is that day and i'll need to pack and load up my car :) Thennn friday at a dreaded 7:30 a.m. is my corrections final, and well I really need to do well on that one.. my grade isn't so hot in there.

Also, got a few LAE things taken care of. Got my papers together for reimbursement from Angelfest, got the password changed for our e-mail that we were all unaware of! Found e-mails from 2002 not opened, geeeeeze! So I deleted everything and responded to someone that e-mailed from last semester about joining. Lastly, I came across an oldddd LAE website from 2002, had that deleted and am going to recreate a site for the new year. So we are all slowly making progress. It is just hard when people haven't passed down knowledge from a long time ago, which of course I am thankful of what was passed down. Also found out that our wonderful president will be with us for fall 2011, so yay for having her help :)

SO! I mentioned in the beginning how my week had turned around tremendously from in the past and well, here's the main reason :) Well first of all, I haven't talked to Trevor very much lately. He has been very busy with work. He worked for 35 hours one day, two day jobs, etc. etc. So, kind of makes it hard when I don't always talk to him, at first I was like ohhh my gosh, he's not talking to me, lol then finally I heard from him and he told me he was still working, I couldn't believe it. So got a little freaked out, then I was fine after that haha.. I know I know, shouldn't have even worried. But, we skyped Friday night for like 15 minutes, which made me happy to see his smiling handsome face! But on Sunday night, I became the happiest girl in the whole entire world! Trevor told me that he had came up with an idea, and that was to save up some money with his current job in WY for about a year AND THEN, move back to Indy and go to school..AHHHHH! :):):):):) Well, where do I even begin for why this is so absofreakinglutely amazing!!!!?!! 1) he'd be back in indiana 2) he'd be in the same state as me 3) no more long distance relationship 4) only a year of long distance as opposed to until I am done with college 5) I don't have to consider relocating in the future if it works out, which of course it will 6) he's going to get his degree, which I am very happy about, so so proud of him! and most importantly 7) the love of my life is no longer going to be 1500 miles away from me and it's going to be absolutely amazing when he comes back :):):) YAY times a trillion. Lol, he asked if that made me happy and I said actually, you have absolutely not idea babe...... and he said yay, it makes him happy too :) SO, this is amazing sign for the future and everything in general. This news definitely could not have come at a better time with finals, etc. coming up. It definitely gave me that extra boost of energy and good spirits to finish out the semester!

Well, it's almost 10:30 and I am going to find something to do, probably not productive because that is what tomorrow is going to be for :) Personality psychology final out of the way, three more to go!

With love,
the happiest & luckiest girl in the world
<3 miss ali kate

I love my trevor lowell :)

going through the motions..

so the rest of the week did not go ANY better. i went to one class, which was on tuesday and that is only because i had to turn in my paper, then i went back to my dorm to grab a snack and freshen up since i was up until 4:30 am writing the paper.. then went to work. after that i pretty much laid in bed all day wednesday and thursday. So one class, one work hour ... talk about blowing off this week. I had absolutely zero motivation to leave the dorm, i do not want to be at school anymore, I am tired of it. I am burnt out. I am exhausted. I am frustrated. I am all of these emotions and I just need a break. I came home again this weekend..two weekends in a row. I, of course, would come home next weekend but have some events for LAE going on..and then it's going to be finals week, thankfully... so kind of bittersweet.

i told trevor i was mad at him earlier today.. because i don't keep anything from him and i was just having a moment of weakness.. i was crying on the way home thinking how unhappy i am right now and how it wouldn't have been that way if we wouldn't have moved.. but then again for all i know, maybe something would've happened here that would've made me unhappy.. i honestly don't know. and i love seeing his face and talking to him on skype, but honestly..it leaves me even more empty and sad after we get done talking. And he knows this and was like well, maybe we shouldnt talk anymore? And being the train wreck I currently am, I automatically thought he meant in general, as in a break up, and started to cry.. of course he caught on real quick how i took that statement. he needed to go to bed since he is on call 7 days a week, but after he saw i was upset.. and even though i was like go to bed, it's fine.. he told me no, that he wanted to talk to me...which i love about him. He never just lets it go, he can tell when i'm upset and doesn't ever leave us being on bad terms when we are done talking.

I really wish I knew what the answer is. I know if God wanted me to know what the answer was, he would be telling me somehow, someway. But, in the meantime...I am just wanting my space from everyone. I want to be with the people I love, my family. And Jillian has been great too, I couldn't ask for a better person to share a little jail cell with. She probably wants to slap me sometimes for my stupidity, excessive use of the word trevor, and quirky habits..but hey, where would her comic show come from if i wasn't making an idiot out of myself 24/7? lol She informed me that if I had a comic show that she would watch it, lol, then again I might need an audience bigger than one! ha.

Well, I wrote more than I meant to.. but I am going to put a tv show or movie on, maybe grab a drink and relax.. kind of tired, so probably fall asleep soon..but doubtful since for some odd reason I can never sleep when i am at home.. might have to get out the excedrin pm, for all the crying i do it's no wonder i have such a headache all the time. YAY for being with my amazing sister tomorrow, vegging out, putting up christmas, writing my courts paper, which i could do without that!, and watching a few movies, going the distance included.

my theme song from now until... well when i decide i don't need it anymore...
"space" by something corporate.

<3 ali kate.

Oh, and it's official.
I love my trevor.
My trevor loves me.
Yes, he dropped the L-bomb :)
About damn time, right?? haha.