Friday, January 7, 2011

FINALLY starting to feel better!

So I had been sick pretty much for the past week and a half.. and ughh it was horrible. I honestly would have rather been puking and sneezing, coughing etc. than feeling dizzy, lightheaded, like I was going to puke but couldn't, the no appetite part was nice, but otherwise UGHH, I can't tell you the last time I have felt that horrible.

I had been on zoloft for almost 4 years, but I had upped my dose about a year ago and that is when I started to gain all of my weight - about 40 lbs in all. I think the higher dose did a number on my metabolism and I also started sleeping like crazy, so I had done some research and thought okay, why not try something else. I had looked at the Wellbutrin, and my doctor switched me and oh my gosh, worst idea of my life. I loved not having an appetite, but I honestly would rather watch what I eat and work my ass off in the gym then I would feel the way I felt this week. SOOOO not worth it. So, I took some of my old medicine and slept a lot so I think I am finally starting to feel better. Mashed potatoes and noodles tore up my stomach earlier, but oh well.

I am still waiting for BSU to put up their fitness schedule for the spring. I need to buy some passes so I can take classes. I may just buy the 10 pass for now and then get the unlimited later on, not sure. I need to decide because $95 is a lot, but at the same time it is actually a good deal if you go multiple times a week which is what I am planning on doing! I had talked to Trevor about a work out plan and such, and if I remember correctly he said cardio either 5 or 7 days a week for an hour or hour and a half.. I forget the details, I need to ask him again, lol. I am excited to work out actually, especially once I feel almost 100% again, especially with Jillian taking some classes with me as well! :) First week is free week again, so I have some more time to play around with classes. I am not for sure on how many times I can do each fitness class due to my class schedule/work/LAE BUT My plan is to walk 2 miles on the track 7 days a week, do yoga once/twice a week, do all about arms twice a week, do h.a.b.i.t twice a week, and perhaps another class, or may just go work out on the elliptical or something on my own. PLUS, I really need to watch what I eat. I understand that I will completely quit what I am doing if I go cold turkey on stuff, but if I just pay attention to what I am putting into my body and try to reduce it down some then that is going to have to help.

Especially after I am working out in the rec center, I love that i can walk over and go to Quiznos and grab a sammie and some soup and a gatorade/water. I know it isn't super healthy, but it is healthier than a lot of the other junk that is on campus. But, I am also super stoked..I got some awesome new kicks :) They are Nike, which I was kind of concerned about at first, but then decided to give them another try and they are like a dark fuschia with neon lime! I reallly like them, I wanted some color for a change compared to my asics. I hope they are as comfy as my asics, which they cost the same so i would like to hope so! Plus I got a Nike work out shirt on sale and two pairs of stretchy workout capris from TJ Max. I really can't find myself to pay $80 for a pair of workout pants. I guess I don't have a problem with paying that for jeans and such just because I feel like with workout pants I am not going to be easy on them, I am going to be sweating etc. Maybe I will treat myself to a cute outfit once I lose weight. I really need to upload a before picture of me just for myself at future reference. Yeah I have pictures of myself but I want one in like shorts and a tank from a front, back, and side angle so I can compare them later on!

I have the Debbie Slim in 6 Video, I may consider bringing back to school.. but there isn't room in the dorm and unless I go down to the MPR, which I think the disc has to be approved, which is dumb so it would probably be more of a pain than anything to get it setup but we shall see. I made Lindsey a copy of it so we would both have one.

Well, my computer feels like it's going to melt and fly away lol soo I best be stopping writing. Got about 14% battery life left and it's 3:30 am.. Wishing it was a little bit later b/c some orange juice sounds sooo good! Yay for celebrating Emmy/Lindsey/Jasons birthday tonight at the new Los Bravos, especially now that I am feeling better! Boo for having to get my crap together soon and pack and all that fun stuff..and spend money on books, ewww. About $400 this semester, so ridiculous! But I am excited to give Lindsey and Em their presents and get my haircut on Sunday and get my new tire put on my car after it's amazing bodywork it got done :) Anddd since Trevor wanted to know what his christmas was waiting at home, I told him in exchange for telling me.. so I am getting a Necklace from Zales. OOOOO! I feel super duper special.. I have never gotten jewelry before especially not from someone i lovvved, lol. So yes, I am stoked. I can't wait to get that. Otherwise 55 days until I am with the love of my life!!!! Already been through 45 days, so go me :) Ah, I love trevor sooooo much, can't tell you last time I have been this happy.. probably bcause I haven't been!!!! lol Eesh, I am acting immature, whoops!

Okay, better go.. peaaaace, loooove, and weight loss <3

Monday, January 3, 2011

GOALS

Although he does not know it, my motivation is going to be my amazing boyfriend. He may tell me that "I am perfect the way i am" but i honestly wish he would be like your fat lol
Who am I doing this for? Myself. This is the first step to making myself a happier me.
I find weight to be just a number so the hell with this.
I am just shy of 5'8" and am now weighing in at a whopping 189 pounds.
I have gained 49 pounds since January 2010 and that disgusts me.
I want to be able to wear my clothes without having to try on multiple tops to worry about how I look in the mirror. i feel like i have all these nice and pricey clothes in my closet but i don't wear half of them because i don't like the way i look in them.

So with that being said.. I want to put into words what some of my goals are for myself.
Start Weight 189 lbs
Current Weight: 185 lbs
Final Goal Weight: 140 lbs

1st Goal: Lose 10 lbs = 175 lbs
2nd Goal: Lose 15 lbs = 170 lbs
3rd Goal: Lose 20 lbs = 165 lbs BY SPRING BREAK
4th Goal: Lose 25 lbs = 160 lbs
5th Goal: Lose 30 lbs = 155 lbs
6th Goal: Lose 35 lbs = 150 lbs
7th Goal: Lose 40 lbs = 145 lbs
8th Goal: Lose 45 lbs = 140 lbs
Final Goal: MAINTAIN between 140-150 lbs

I will post some pictures for my start weight, etc and post them and then update pictures as I go!

YAY!