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I haven't written for almost a week, and decided I need to talk about some things and get them off my chest!

Last Thursday I went to my WW meeting and lost 3 lbs, so I was super excited about that, sure I had gained 2 lbs last time so I actually have only lost about 1 lb, but it was still a good thing to hear. I worked really hard last week. I was all excited for this week and to continue losing weight, but a lot of things were going on and I kind of got stressed and haven't been using my points system. I have been really tired and not wanting to take the time to go downstairs and checking out all of the kitchenware, etc. Plus, I would have to go back to the store and get more items to cook, which I don't have the money to do so. So, after all the eating I have done, I am probably going back to where I was last week, which is only going to frustrate me.

Last friday, I stayed in and cleaned the dorm up a bit. J went to Canada and Wes went to Michigan. I originally planned on going home, but then with Trevor having off Saturday, Sunday, Monday I really didn't want to miss out on all the time together. Saturday afternoon he came over and we hung out - ended up going out to eat at Outback Steakhouse and then to the Indy Screampark, got some movies and ice cream and hung out at the dorm all evening. I felt bad, it was an expensive date night - but I had a blast. The Indy Screampark was a good time, it was cold outside and muddy and $50 for both of us .. ehh, but it was so much fun. The next day we watched movies, went and got some Chinese food, went to the mall and some stores (his idea!! :)) and then of course, we haaaad to work out. So we went to the new rec center and spent an hour and thirty minutes there!!! AH! lol. I am still hurting, ha. played basketball, Ran a mile, did some stretches, some ab workouts, lunges, etc. It was like having my own personal trainer, it was cool! It was nice to have someone push me though and show me the proper way to use a lot of the workout equipment, normally when i am by myself I don't feel like I am doing stuff right and fly through the workouts. After that it was time for the Bears Game vs NY Giants, which sadly the Bears totally bombed out and lost! Cutler was sacked a record amount of time and ended up with a concussion, I don't know what the deal was. Then the next day he went home, which of course I didn't like, lol. But I really enjoyed spending two day s straight with him which never happens.

On Monday, I had a couple of housing appointments to go to - Wes and I went to one on Riverside, which we ruled out and then we went to the one on Dicks, which we loved. I then ended up not having night class that night, which was great! I was able to spend a lot of the evening studying for my Corrections test and we made dinner - Turkey Burgers, Tofu Noodles (baaaad idea), and steamed veggies. overall, meal was pretty good, ha. I ended up staying there because I was really afraid with how tired I was that I would not get out of bed for my test this morning, which I couldn't afford to miss. Woke up to it being freezing outside, literally. I love cold weather, but when I have the proper attire of course which was not the case. My sweatshirt just did not cut it! Took the test, not totally sure how it went. I recognized it all, but i don't know.. guess we will see when the gradebook score comes out.

As for what else is going on, just kind of stressed this week with the two tests, not getting paid until friday which still won't be enough, but it will help. I was thinking of ways to make money today - I am going to go to coinstar, plato's closet, and maybe find some things to sell on cragislist, as well as help clean at Wes's apartment. It will all add up, but then I have a lot of other expenses this month for LAE stuff and gas. After speaking with Lori and her husband today, they made me feel a lot better about the whole renting process and monetary arrangements. They seem to be aware of how things work for college students and have given several options if some of us are on financial aid, post dated checks, etc. So I was pleasantly surprised with that. They have both been super great, I really like them. I am in hopes that everything works out. We thought we had someone, but that kind of fell through..but J loved the house, so right now Me, Wes, and J are on board. Wes's good friend Grant is actually very interested, so they are going tomorrow to look at the place..if Grant likes it, we are going to be ready to sign on Friday, which makes me happy. Right now we are only competing for the house with the current tenants, who also have three people and are just looking for a fourth, so the sooner the better. I really don't think we will find a better deal and nicer house on campus that has yet to be rented. Prime location - It will actually be closer for me to go to work than where I am now, which is awesome :) I will keep you all posted with that, I am really excited. I wish it was all done and completed and it was next year, but it will come soon enough I guess. I am pretty excited thats for sure!!

I mentioned being super tired lately, not sure what the deal is. I have been a little bit more social lately and doing things, plus with the weather getting cooler I think it is all contributing, but then again I may be getting sick.. I am just not sure right now. I woke up Sunday or Monday morning with a sore throat, which I wasn't digging.

So, I am glad Tuesday is already over! Wednesday is going to be a day of working from 11-1:30, and studying for my research methods test all day and night because this is supposed to be the hardest test of the semester in that class, go figure. I may even work out at the gym, I shouldn't be as sore tomorrow! On Thursday, I plan on going to my 240, 220 to take test, then I don't have to work but have a PDS (Professional Development Seminar) for Criminal Justice at 2, where there will be a speaker coming to discuss Forensic Autopsy, which may be a little graphic, but I am excited like the criminal justice freak that I am! Ha. After that, is the CJC Wing Ding aka all the wings and soft drinks on the department of CJC at Muglys you can eat, which I was never able to attend last year, so I am excited to go with Brooke and Katie. After hopefully not devouring TOO many wings, I am going to WW and probably seeing a disappointing number. Normally I would be done for the week, but I had to finagle my schedule around a bit, and I now work from 10:45-5 on Friday, then fingers crossed will hopefully be able to sign for the dicks place :):):) But, I am trying not to get too excited just b/c I have had a lot of disappoint the last couple of weeks.

Overall, things are going well at school. I enjoy my classes, sometimes hard to focus, but grades are a lot better than last year. I am looking forward to getting this week out of the way and seeing the boy again. He doesn't have a day off until Sunday though. This weekend is homecoming and J and I are going to go to some of the festivities and have some girl time, which I am excited about and need! Then after getting through next week - which includes another test, I get to go home! I will only be home for Saturday and Sunday, but still! My lovely seeeester's party is on Saturday and I am bringing Trevor!! I am sooo sooo excited for him to meet Lindsey and the Davis crew and everyone. We are going on 2 months next week I do believe, not that I've kept track or anything haha. But, I am hoping Lindsey likes him, because that is important. I am really hoping that she does because I am absolutely crazy about him. I guess we have been talking for about four months now, and it is more like a grown up relationship, and serious...which I like. I was so over high school drama, etc. and was on the verge of giving up and then received a pleasant surprise. I hope everything continues to go as well as it has - which this morning I woke up with a nice text that had a voice message, telling me good morning and to have a good day. It is the sweet things like that that makes me melt. Excuse me for being sappy, but hey it's my blog :) And, I have been thinking and thinking lately how incredibly happy that I am and that I am looking forward to all the great times to come. I couldn't ask for a better person, friend, and boyfriend.

I have always been worried about getting hurt. I took my first break up pretty badly in High School and that kind of set the tone for the rest of my relationships. Between those unsuccessful relationships and seeing other relationships around me not always work out..it was somewhat hard to be hopeful. But after realizing that from each relationship you learn something and you take what mistakes you make and learn from them for your next relationship make you realize what you have when you finally have it and if it's what you truly want. I have always envisioned this perfect person, needing this, this, and this.. but that is unrealistic. I just need someone that is perfect for me, and I am perfect for them.

In the beginning, I was really worried about being led on and getting lied too after some previous assholes this summer and in general, but over the course of the four months, I have came to realize that I am with an incredible guy, that sure we have our differences on stuff and there are days that no matter what he says I take it badly and I cry and he laughs and apologizes, days when I am grumpy, and when he is grumpy, that it still works. I totally get it hasn't been that long, but I guess I just needed to get this off of my chest as opposed to dumping all this information on him, don't know if it's quite that time yet. I guess, I don;t know totally how to feel or what to think, but I know that it is good and I am very happy.. My sister always could point out who were "fillers" and who were actually promising guys, I am thinking she will share the same opinion as I do - a keeper! :) I can't say I have ever felt like I have been with someone that I feel like I can kind of teach them about things and they can teach me. I have always wanted that though, where they were more the caring type that took the time to for example, teach me how football works, working out, etc and making plans to go places, see things, learn stuff... I think this is how a good, healthy relationship is supposed to work. Oh, and I think he's gorgeous! Hahaha. As mom always says, they have to flip your switch, which I will place a big check mark in that box. I am definitely falling :) .. fingers crossed someone will be there to catch me! <3


Well, this was a super long post. I had a lot to say and get out. Ah, I feel better. Well, I am thinking about going to bed, or do something other than write more. I am pretty tired, need some quality sleep tonight.

Well loveeeeee you kiddos.

p.s. Can't wait for my good friend Christina to have her baby boy! Fingers crossed for this week. I know she is going to be an amazing momma! Best of luck sweetie!