So I had been sick pretty much for the past week and a half.. and ughh it was horrible. I honestly would have rather been puking and sneezing, coughing etc. than feeling dizzy, lightheaded, like I was going to puke but couldn't, the no appetite part was nice, but otherwise UGHH, I can't tell you the last time I have felt that horrible.
I had been on zoloft for almost 4 years, but I had upped my dose about a year ago and that is when I started to gain all of my weight - about 40 lbs in all. I think the higher dose did a number on my metabolism and I also started sleeping like crazy, so I had done some research and thought okay, why not try something else. I had looked at the Wellbutrin, and my doctor switched me and oh my gosh, worst idea of my life. I loved not having an appetite, but I honestly would rather watch what I eat and work my ass off in the gym then I would feel the way I felt this week. SOOOO not worth it. So, I took some of my old medicine and slept a lot so I think I am finally starting to feel better. Mashed potatoes and noodles tore up my stomach earlier, but oh well.
I am still waiting for BSU to put up their fitness schedule for the spring. I need to buy some passes so I can take classes. I may just buy the 10 pass for now and then get the unlimited later on, not sure. I need to decide because $95 is a lot, but at the same time it is actually a good deal if you go multiple times a week which is what I am planning on doing! I had talked to Trevor about a work out plan and such, and if I remember correctly he said cardio either 5 or 7 days a week for an hour or hour and a half.. I forget the details, I need to ask him again, lol. I am excited to work out actually, especially once I feel almost 100% again, especially with Jillian taking some classes with me as well! :) First week is free week again, so I have some more time to play around with classes. I am not for sure on how many times I can do each fitness class due to my class schedule/work/LAE BUT My plan is to walk 2 miles on the track 7 days a week, do yoga once/twice a week, do all about arms twice a week, do h.a.b.i.t twice a week, and perhaps another class, or may just go work out on the elliptical or something on my own. PLUS, I really need to watch what I eat. I understand that I will completely quit what I am doing if I go cold turkey on stuff, but if I just pay attention to what I am putting into my body and try to reduce it down some then that is going to have to help.
Especially after I am working out in the rec center, I love that i can walk over and go to Quiznos and grab a sammie and some soup and a gatorade/water. I know it isn't super healthy, but it is healthier than a lot of the other junk that is on campus. But, I am also super stoked..I got some awesome new kicks :) They are Nike, which I was kind of concerned about at first, but then decided to give them another try and they are like a dark fuschia with neon lime! I reallly like them, I wanted some color for a change compared to my asics. I hope they are as comfy as my asics, which they cost the same so i would like to hope so! Plus I got a Nike work out shirt on sale and two pairs of stretchy workout capris from TJ Max. I really can't find myself to pay $80 for a pair of workout pants. I guess I don't have a problem with paying that for jeans and such just because I feel like with workout pants I am not going to be easy on them, I am going to be sweating etc. Maybe I will treat myself to a cute outfit once I lose weight. I really need to upload a before picture of me just for myself at future reference. Yeah I have pictures of myself but I want one in like shorts and a tank from a front, back, and side angle so I can compare them later on!
I have the Debbie Slim in 6 Video, I may consider bringing back to school.. but there isn't room in the dorm and unless I go down to the MPR, which I think the disc has to be approved, which is dumb so it would probably be more of a pain than anything to get it setup but we shall see. I made Lindsey a copy of it so we would both have one.
Well, my computer feels like it's going to melt and fly away lol soo I best be stopping writing. Got about 14% battery life left and it's 3:30 am.. Wishing it was a little bit later b/c some orange juice sounds sooo good! Yay for celebrating Emmy/Lindsey/Jasons birthday tonight at the new Los Bravos, especially now that I am feeling better! Boo for having to get my crap together soon and pack and all that fun stuff..and spend money on books, ewww. About $400 this semester, so ridiculous! But I am excited to give Lindsey and Em their presents and get my haircut on Sunday and get my new tire put on my car after it's amazing bodywork it got done :) Anddd since Trevor wanted to know what his christmas was waiting at home, I told him in exchange for telling me.. so I am getting a Necklace from Zales. OOOOO! I feel super duper special.. I have never gotten jewelry before especially not from someone i lovvved, lol. So yes, I am stoked. I can't wait to get that. Otherwise 55 days until I am with the love of my life!!!! Already been through 45 days, so go me :) Ah, I love trevor sooooo much, can't tell you last time I have been this happy.. probably bcause I haven't been!!!! lol Eesh, I am acting immature, whoops!
Okay, better go.. peaaaace, loooove, and weight loss <3
Friday, January 7, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
GOALS
Although he does not know it, my motivation is going to be my amazing boyfriend. He may tell me that "I am perfect the way i am" but i honestly wish he would be like your fat lol
Who am I doing this for? Myself. This is the first step to making myself a happier me.
I find weight to be just a number so the hell with this.
I am just shy of 5'8" and am now weighing in at a whopping 189 pounds.
I have gained 49 pounds since January 2010 and that disgusts me.
I want to be able to wear my clothes without having to try on multiple tops to worry about how I look in the mirror. i feel like i have all these nice and pricey clothes in my closet but i don't wear half of them because i don't like the way i look in them.
So with that being said.. I want to put into words what some of my goals are for myself.
Start Weight 189 lbs
Current Weight: 185 lbs
Final Goal Weight: 140 lbs
1st Goal: Lose 10 lbs = 175 lbs
2nd Goal: Lose 15 lbs = 170 lbs
3rd Goal: Lose 20 lbs = 165 lbs BY SPRING BREAK
4th Goal: Lose 25 lbs = 160 lbs
5th Goal: Lose 30 lbs = 155 lbs
6th Goal: Lose 35 lbs = 150 lbs
7th Goal: Lose 40 lbs = 145 lbs
8th Goal: Lose 45 lbs = 140 lbs
Final Goal: MAINTAIN between 140-150 lbs
I will post some pictures for my start weight, etc and post them and then update pictures as I go!
Who am I doing this for? Myself. This is the first step to making myself a happier me.
I find weight to be just a number so the hell with this.
I am just shy of 5'8" and am now weighing in at a whopping 189 pounds.
I have gained 49 pounds since January 2010 and that disgusts me.
I want to be able to wear my clothes without having to try on multiple tops to worry about how I look in the mirror. i feel like i have all these nice and pricey clothes in my closet but i don't wear half of them because i don't like the way i look in them.
So with that being said.. I want to put into words what some of my goals are for myself.
Start Weight 189 lbs
Current Weight: 185 lbs
Final Goal Weight: 140 lbs
1st Goal: Lose 10 lbs = 175 lbs
2nd Goal: Lose 15 lbs = 170 lbs
3rd Goal: Lose 20 lbs = 165 lbs BY SPRING BREAK
4th Goal: Lose 25 lbs = 160 lbs
5th Goal: Lose 30 lbs = 155 lbs
6th Goal: Lose 35 lbs = 150 lbs
7th Goal: Lose 40 lbs = 145 lbs
8th Goal: Lose 45 lbs = 140 lbs
Final Goal: MAINTAIN between 140-150 lbs
I will post some pictures for my start weight, etc and post them and then update pictures as I go!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Hey Finals Week!
So, the last time I wrote I was having a hard time with everything. I wasn't feeling all that well along with a mix of other things. Well a lot has changed since then thankfully :) I hung out with Jillian all weekend, which was a fun time. We decided to rearrange the room, it had been about 2 months so we were long overdue! ha. I like our setup, I think she does too :) Also participated in Angelfest on Friday at the Boys and Girls Club, LAE had a table. Overall that event went well, we got done really early though, about an hour and a half but I think the kids there were happy and everything so that's what matters! It was definitely a great feeling to see the kids smiling and having fun and being able to get Christmas gifts that they might have not been able to get otherwise.
Yesterday, J and I went to a fitness class since it is free fitness week, and well wow.. It was called Extreme Fitness, and BOOOOY did they mean it! I was actually only able to do it for 30 minutes before I felt like I was going to pass out and I couldn't breathe and then my wonderful roomie checked on me to make sure I was okay and got our stuff and then left early with me. I guess they base their class off of something called Crossfit...well unless you're hardcore I don't recommend this! It hurts sooo bad just to move, lol. I can't tell you the last time I have had this much pain in my butt, thighs, legs, etc. I mean no pain, no gain... but I wouldn't mind being able to walk normally, lol. So, I slept with a heating pad last night and did stretches before I went to bed and when I got up this morning. I know J made a special trip to walmart to buy a heating pad and some bengay. Considering getting out my bengay, but that would basically consist of dipping my lower half of my body in it, ha.
I planned on going to all about arms today, but decided I was awfully sore and didn't know if I could actually do anything, so took today off. Tomorrow they have another session, so I am going to do the all about arms then, and then there is also Fab Ride, which I really want to do because it is 45 minutes of spin and 15 minutes of an abdominal workout. Then tomorrow evening is Midnight Breakfast, which as always it is a ritual to have some fun before going, so I'm looking forward to sailing the seas with my fab roomie ;) Andd Wednesday is Work Lunch, Courts final, anddd Yoga! Thursday I am taking a day off if I don't find a class I would like to do, and my research methods final is that day and i'll need to pack and load up my car :) Thennn friday at a dreaded 7:30 a.m. is my corrections final, and well I really need to do well on that one.. my grade isn't so hot in there.
Also, got a few LAE things taken care of. Got my papers together for reimbursement from Angelfest, got the password changed for our e-mail that we were all unaware of! Found e-mails from 2002 not opened, geeeeeze! So I deleted everything and responded to someone that e-mailed from last semester about joining. Lastly, I came across an oldddd LAE website from 2002, had that deleted and am going to recreate a site for the new year. So we are all slowly making progress. It is just hard when people haven't passed down knowledge from a long time ago, which of course I am thankful of what was passed down. Also found out that our wonderful president will be with us for fall 2011, so yay for having her help :)
SO! I mentioned in the beginning how my week had turned around tremendously from in the past and well, here's the main reason :) Well first of all, I haven't talked to Trevor very much lately. He has been very busy with work. He worked for 35 hours one day, two day jobs, etc. etc. So, kind of makes it hard when I don't always talk to him, at first I was like ohhh my gosh, he's not talking to me, lol then finally I heard from him and he told me he was still working, I couldn't believe it. So got a little freaked out, then I was fine after that haha.. I know I know, shouldn't have even worried. But, we skyped Friday night for like 15 minutes, which made me happy to see his smiling handsome face! But on Sunday night, I became the happiest girl in the whole entire world! Trevor told me that he had came up with an idea, and that was to save up some money with his current job in WY for about a year AND THEN, move back to Indy and go to school..AHHHHH! :):):):):) Well, where do I even begin for why this is so absofreakinglutely amazing!!!!?!! 1) he'd be back in indiana 2) he'd be in the same state as me 3) no more long distance relationship 4) only a year of long distance as opposed to until I am done with college 5) I don't have to consider relocating in the future if it works out, which of course it will 6) he's going to get his degree, which I am very happy about, so so proud of him! and most importantly 7) the love of my life is no longer going to be 1500 miles away from me and it's going to be absolutely amazing when he comes back :):):) YAY times a trillion. Lol, he asked if that made me happy and I said actually, you have absolutely not idea babe...... and he said yay, it makes him happy too :) SO, this is amazing sign for the future and everything in general. This news definitely could not have come at a better time with finals, etc. coming up. It definitely gave me that extra boost of energy and good spirits to finish out the semester!
Well, it's almost 10:30 and I am going to find something to do, probably not productive because that is what tomorrow is going to be for :) Personality psychology final out of the way, three more to go!
With love,
the happiest & luckiest girl in the world
<3 miss ali kate
I love my trevor lowell :)
Yesterday, J and I went to a fitness class since it is free fitness week, and well wow.. It was called Extreme Fitness, and BOOOOY did they mean it! I was actually only able to do it for 30 minutes before I felt like I was going to pass out and I couldn't breathe and then my wonderful roomie checked on me to make sure I was okay and got our stuff and then left early with me. I guess they base their class off of something called Crossfit...well unless you're hardcore I don't recommend this! It hurts sooo bad just to move, lol. I can't tell you the last time I have had this much pain in my butt, thighs, legs, etc. I mean no pain, no gain... but I wouldn't mind being able to walk normally, lol. So, I slept with a heating pad last night and did stretches before I went to bed and when I got up this morning. I know J made a special trip to walmart to buy a heating pad and some bengay. Considering getting out my bengay, but that would basically consist of dipping my lower half of my body in it, ha.
I planned on going to all about arms today, but decided I was awfully sore and didn't know if I could actually do anything, so took today off. Tomorrow they have another session, so I am going to do the all about arms then, and then there is also Fab Ride, which I really want to do because it is 45 minutes of spin and 15 minutes of an abdominal workout. Then tomorrow evening is Midnight Breakfast, which as always it is a ritual to have some fun before going, so I'm looking forward to sailing the seas with my fab roomie ;) Andd Wednesday is Work Lunch, Courts final, anddd Yoga! Thursday I am taking a day off if I don't find a class I would like to do, and my research methods final is that day and i'll need to pack and load up my car :) Thennn friday at a dreaded 7:30 a.m. is my corrections final, and well I really need to do well on that one.. my grade isn't so hot in there.
Also, got a few LAE things taken care of. Got my papers together for reimbursement from Angelfest, got the password changed for our e-mail that we were all unaware of! Found e-mails from 2002 not opened, geeeeeze! So I deleted everything and responded to someone that e-mailed from last semester about joining. Lastly, I came across an oldddd LAE website from 2002, had that deleted and am going to recreate a site for the new year. So we are all slowly making progress. It is just hard when people haven't passed down knowledge from a long time ago, which of course I am thankful of what was passed down. Also found out that our wonderful president will be with us for fall 2011, so yay for having her help :)
SO! I mentioned in the beginning how my week had turned around tremendously from in the past and well, here's the main reason :) Well first of all, I haven't talked to Trevor very much lately. He has been very busy with work. He worked for 35 hours one day, two day jobs, etc. etc. So, kind of makes it hard when I don't always talk to him, at first I was like ohhh my gosh, he's not talking to me, lol then finally I heard from him and he told me he was still working, I couldn't believe it. So got a little freaked out, then I was fine after that haha.. I know I know, shouldn't have even worried. But, we skyped Friday night for like 15 minutes, which made me happy to see his smiling handsome face! But on Sunday night, I became the happiest girl in the whole entire world! Trevor told me that he had came up with an idea, and that was to save up some money with his current job in WY for about a year AND THEN, move back to Indy and go to school..AHHHHH! :):):):):) Well, where do I even begin for why this is so absofreakinglutely amazing!!!!?!! 1) he'd be back in indiana 2) he'd be in the same state as me 3) no more long distance relationship 4) only a year of long distance as opposed to until I am done with college 5) I don't have to consider relocating in the future if it works out, which of course it will 6) he's going to get his degree, which I am very happy about, so so proud of him! and most importantly 7) the love of my life is no longer going to be 1500 miles away from me and it's going to be absolutely amazing when he comes back :):):) YAY times a trillion. Lol, he asked if that made me happy and I said actually, you have absolutely not idea babe...... and he said yay, it makes him happy too :) SO, this is amazing sign for the future and everything in general. This news definitely could not have come at a better time with finals, etc. coming up. It definitely gave me that extra boost of energy and good spirits to finish out the semester!
Well, it's almost 10:30 and I am going to find something to do, probably not productive because that is what tomorrow is going to be for :) Personality psychology final out of the way, three more to go!
With love,
the happiest & luckiest girl in the world
<3 miss ali kate
I love my trevor lowell :)
Thursday, December 2, 2010
going through the motions..
so the rest of the week did not go ANY better. i went to one class, which was on tuesday and that is only because i had to turn in my paper, then i went back to my dorm to grab a snack and freshen up since i was up until 4:30 am writing the paper.. then went to work. after that i pretty much laid in bed all day wednesday and thursday. So one class, one work hour ... talk about blowing off this week. I had absolutely zero motivation to leave the dorm, i do not want to be at school anymore, I am tired of it. I am burnt out. I am exhausted. I am frustrated. I am all of these emotions and I just need a break. I came home again this weekend..two weekends in a row. I, of course, would come home next weekend but have some events for LAE going on..and then it's going to be finals week, thankfully... so kind of bittersweet.
i told trevor i was mad at him earlier today.. because i don't keep anything from him and i was just having a moment of weakness.. i was crying on the way home thinking how unhappy i am right now and how it wouldn't have been that way if we wouldn't have moved.. but then again for all i know, maybe something would've happened here that would've made me unhappy.. i honestly don't know. and i love seeing his face and talking to him on skype, but honestly..it leaves me even more empty and sad after we get done talking. And he knows this and was like well, maybe we shouldnt talk anymore? And being the train wreck I currently am, I automatically thought he meant in general, as in a break up, and started to cry.. of course he caught on real quick how i took that statement. he needed to go to bed since he is on call 7 days a week, but after he saw i was upset.. and even though i was like go to bed, it's fine.. he told me no, that he wanted to talk to me...which i love about him. He never just lets it go, he can tell when i'm upset and doesn't ever leave us being on bad terms when we are done talking.
I really wish I knew what the answer is. I know if God wanted me to know what the answer was, he would be telling me somehow, someway. But, in the meantime...I am just wanting my space from everyone. I want to be with the people I love, my family. And Jillian has been great too, I couldn't ask for a better person to share a little jail cell with. She probably wants to slap me sometimes for my stupidity, excessive use of the word trevor, and quirky habits..but hey, where would her comic show come from if i wasn't making an idiot out of myself 24/7? lol She informed me that if I had a comic show that she would watch it, lol, then again I might need an audience bigger than one! ha.
Well, I wrote more than I meant to.. but I am going to put a tv show or movie on, maybe grab a drink and relax.. kind of tired, so probably fall asleep soon..but doubtful since for some odd reason I can never sleep when i am at home.. might have to get out the excedrin pm, for all the crying i do it's no wonder i have such a headache all the time. YAY for being with my amazing sister tomorrow, vegging out, putting up christmas, writing my courts paper, which i could do without that!, and watching a few movies, going the distance included.
my theme song from now until... well when i decide i don't need it anymore...
"space" by something corporate.
<3 ali kate.
Oh, and it's official.
I love my trevor.
My trevor loves me.
Yes, he dropped the L-bomb :)
About damn time, right?? haha.
i told trevor i was mad at him earlier today.. because i don't keep anything from him and i was just having a moment of weakness.. i was crying on the way home thinking how unhappy i am right now and how it wouldn't have been that way if we wouldn't have moved.. but then again for all i know, maybe something would've happened here that would've made me unhappy.. i honestly don't know. and i love seeing his face and talking to him on skype, but honestly..it leaves me even more empty and sad after we get done talking. And he knows this and was like well, maybe we shouldnt talk anymore? And being the train wreck I currently am, I automatically thought he meant in general, as in a break up, and started to cry.. of course he caught on real quick how i took that statement. he needed to go to bed since he is on call 7 days a week, but after he saw i was upset.. and even though i was like go to bed, it's fine.. he told me no, that he wanted to talk to me...which i love about him. He never just lets it go, he can tell when i'm upset and doesn't ever leave us being on bad terms when we are done talking.
I really wish I knew what the answer is. I know if God wanted me to know what the answer was, he would be telling me somehow, someway. But, in the meantime...I am just wanting my space from everyone. I want to be with the people I love, my family. And Jillian has been great too, I couldn't ask for a better person to share a little jail cell with. She probably wants to slap me sometimes for my stupidity, excessive use of the word trevor, and quirky habits..but hey, where would her comic show come from if i wasn't making an idiot out of myself 24/7? lol She informed me that if I had a comic show that she would watch it, lol, then again I might need an audience bigger than one! ha.
Well, I wrote more than I meant to.. but I am going to put a tv show or movie on, maybe grab a drink and relax.. kind of tired, so probably fall asleep soon..but doubtful since for some odd reason I can never sleep when i am at home.. might have to get out the excedrin pm, for all the crying i do it's no wonder i have such a headache all the time. YAY for being with my amazing sister tomorrow, vegging out, putting up christmas, writing my courts paper, which i could do without that!, and watching a few movies, going the distance included.
my theme song from now until... well when i decide i don't need it anymore...
"space" by something corporate.
<3 ali kate.
Oh, and it's official.
I love my trevor.
My trevor loves me.
Yes, he dropped the L-bomb :)
About damn time, right?? haha.
Monday, November 29, 2010
So much harder..
So, I should be finishing up my paper but...I can't stop crying. I should hold this all in and suck it up.. but I need to get it out. I have been so caught up in being sad, being happy, being every possible emotion and .. ughh, I cannot take it anymore. I do not want to be 1500 miles away from trevor, I do not want to be 3 hours away from my family... I do not want to do it anymore. I want to be at home. I am half tempted to call him and talk to him, but he went to sleep and it's not like it would do anything or he could say anything.. maybe having a video chat wasn't the best idea.. now I am all upset. UGH, why why why does everything FINALLY feel like it's going great, and then it all gets pulled out from underneath me.. I am sooo frustrated, I think my body temperature is raised like no other..
I know no one said it was going to be easy, but i don't quite get it.. and right now i am not looking for some bs reason.. b/c it doesnt change anything. I guess I will be done ranting, throwing a fit..complaining, doing what i do best. finishing this stupid paper and going to bed, or maybe showering and going to bed if there is any time left.. so over this.. over it over it over it!!
I know no one said it was going to be easy, but i don't quite get it.. and right now i am not looking for some bs reason.. b/c it doesnt change anything. I guess I will be done ranting, throwing a fit..complaining, doing what i do best. finishing this stupid paper and going to bed, or maybe showering and going to bed if there is any time left.. so over this.. over it over it over it!!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Woah, November Already? Thanksgiving Over??
Alright, so I've not written in forever but life is busy..so don't expect so much from me.
Thanksgiving is pretty much over, it was a decent day. I always enjoy spending time with the family and hearing how everyone has been. Went to French Lick for lunch w/ Gma, Carl, and Mom-- lindsey and john were supposed to go but my poor darling seeeester has a horrible case of strep :( But then after that mom and I walked around to some shops and checked stuff out.. afterwards we went to Michelle's to play games and visit, ate dinner, and hung out some more. Got to see my babygirl again, which of course made me happy :) The day before I got to be Emma's Special Person for Kindergarten at Special Person Day! Once again, Lindsey was supposed to go but since she was sick, I covered for her! And I guess Emmy didn't know I was going to be home from college either, so was excited to know I was going to be home and go..so that made me happy :)
The weather has been so nasty out! I am normally pretty flexible with weather.. it's just kind of like it is what it is.. but since I am at home, I don't have any of my clothes that I normally would have.. like sweatshirts, rain boots, bubble umbrella, etc. so I have been on the struggle bus! It was sleeting on our way home, but thinking that way turn to snow? Not totally sure about the rest of the weekend, I am just in hopes it's not nasty out when I go back to campus.. which may play a factor in if I go back Sunday night or Monday morning.
School is going alright.. I am kind of in that "I'm ready to pull my hair out" part of the semester! Definitely can't believe it's almost over.. basically have two weeks of classes and then it's finals week! It's exciting, yet stressful thinking that thats all we have left! I have felt like I have tried a lot harder with school, but I don't feel like my grades are showing it so much which is really frustrating. A lot of my teachers grade kind of hard this semester, plus we haven't had a lot of grades. My favorite class is Courts, but she is very literal and strict when it comes to her guidelines and ways of doing things..which is fine but for some reason I have been having trouble getting the format down properly for her extra credit... so I have spent time writing 2 2 page papers that could've given me an extra 5 points a piece.. but I didn't get it because I put one extra line in.. I guess I messed it up, but I don't know.. so so soooo frustrating! On the bright side, I was really worried about my two tests that I had just taken, and I found out that I got an 81% on my Corrections Test, which I will take a B. I blame the low B b/c my teacher always gives us the essay questions a few days before...normally 6 and we study all of them, well this time she gave us 4 and not until literally TEN hours before the test. It's like excuse me??? I was SO mad. But whatever, I'll take my B-. As for my research methods test, 82% Baby, wooooohooooo! I couldn't believe it, I was SO excited. I was afraid I failed, so that was the most pleasant surprise ever! So Right now, I'm slightly frustrated with my grades.. but we have finals still and a lot of them have either a big paper due or project as well so I'm not freaking out yet, lol. If I figured right, with a dropped test in Corrections & Courts I have a C in both of those, a B in Research Methods and a B+ in Personality Psychology.. I am really hoping that I can get an A in Research Methods and Personality Psych, and a B in both Corrections and Courts, but we will see. Fingers crossed!!
Well, despite all the good news with school... that obviously means that something else has to pick up the slack or something has to suck... well that would be the love of my life moving 20 hours away to Wyoming for a new job.... yeah... I said Wyoming. Ah, so much has happened but a speedy update.. two weeks ago I went to Newton and met some of his friends, watched him play football, saw his high school, and met pretty much all of his family...which was a fairly big step since other than high school girlfriends I was the first one that he brought home..so made me happy and feel special :) But yea.. then a week later, find out "really really bad news" and yeah..so here I am at home in Loogootee and he is in Casper... way way way too far. I added a countdown widget on my mac.. so right now 98 days and I will see him. It would be amazing if it was before, if not then for sure I will see him for Spring Break, I am planning on flying out there if I can get everything settled right. But, I am definitely kind of down about him moving, but I of course want what is best for him and am going to support him in anything he does. I sent with him some pics and goodies, so hopefully he won't forget about me haha :) But, we actually decided to not break up and are going to do a long distance relationship..which at first I was kind of worried just of how it would work and everything and after we talked about it.. I felt so much better. I dont have a single doubt in my mind that it won't work out and it has made me appreciate so much that I trust him 100% .. it's also made me realize how much I care about him, which I am absolutely crazy about him..I've definitely fallen for him. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met, he's perfect for me... I definitely feel like we "mesh" well together (clueless couldnt have said it better, ha) so I am looking forward to our skype dates, cheesy texts, nightly phone goodnight calls, and countdowns until I see him.. we're willing to try anything to make this work, and thankfully we are both in it 100% so it's going to work out.. hopefully we also figure out something to be together in the future..wherever that may be. But for now, I'll take a spring break trip to Wyoming and a month there this summer.
Well, I am going to try to play Sims 3 on my computer if it won't be lame.. but that's an understatement since I always have trouble playing it on here.. not sure why. Don't really feel like switching mom computers just to play. I should be a good student and take my psych quiz that's due tomorrow by 5, but I'd rather be immature and lay in bed, jam out to music and play sims :)
So yeah.. not the most entertaining speech.. but pretty sure no one even reads my blog.. haha.. ohhh well!
Loveeee Ali Kate
Thanksgiving is pretty much over, it was a decent day. I always enjoy spending time with the family and hearing how everyone has been. Went to French Lick for lunch w/ Gma, Carl, and Mom-- lindsey and john were supposed to go but my poor darling seeeester has a horrible case of strep :( But then after that mom and I walked around to some shops and checked stuff out.. afterwards we went to Michelle's to play games and visit, ate dinner, and hung out some more. Got to see my babygirl again, which of course made me happy :) The day before I got to be Emma's Special Person for Kindergarten at Special Person Day! Once again, Lindsey was supposed to go but since she was sick, I covered for her! And I guess Emmy didn't know I was going to be home from college either, so was excited to know I was going to be home and go..so that made me happy :)
The weather has been so nasty out! I am normally pretty flexible with weather.. it's just kind of like it is what it is.. but since I am at home, I don't have any of my clothes that I normally would have.. like sweatshirts, rain boots, bubble umbrella, etc. so I have been on the struggle bus! It was sleeting on our way home, but thinking that way turn to snow? Not totally sure about the rest of the weekend, I am just in hopes it's not nasty out when I go back to campus.. which may play a factor in if I go back Sunday night or Monday morning.
School is going alright.. I am kind of in that "I'm ready to pull my hair out" part of the semester! Definitely can't believe it's almost over.. basically have two weeks of classes and then it's finals week! It's exciting, yet stressful thinking that thats all we have left! I have felt like I have tried a lot harder with school, but I don't feel like my grades are showing it so much which is really frustrating. A lot of my teachers grade kind of hard this semester, plus we haven't had a lot of grades. My favorite class is Courts, but she is very literal and strict when it comes to her guidelines and ways of doing things..which is fine but for some reason I have been having trouble getting the format down properly for her extra credit... so I have spent time writing 2 2 page papers that could've given me an extra 5 points a piece.. but I didn't get it because I put one extra line in.. I guess I messed it up, but I don't know.. so so soooo frustrating! On the bright side, I was really worried about my two tests that I had just taken, and I found out that I got an 81% on my Corrections Test, which I will take a B. I blame the low B b/c my teacher always gives us the essay questions a few days before...normally 6 and we study all of them, well this time she gave us 4 and not until literally TEN hours before the test. It's like excuse me??? I was SO mad. But whatever, I'll take my B-. As for my research methods test, 82% Baby, wooooohooooo! I couldn't believe it, I was SO excited. I was afraid I failed, so that was the most pleasant surprise ever! So Right now, I'm slightly frustrated with my grades.. but we have finals still and a lot of them have either a big paper due or project as well so I'm not freaking out yet, lol. If I figured right, with a dropped test in Corrections & Courts I have a C in both of those, a B in Research Methods and a B+ in Personality Psychology.. I am really hoping that I can get an A in Research Methods and Personality Psych, and a B in both Corrections and Courts, but we will see. Fingers crossed!!
Well, despite all the good news with school... that obviously means that something else has to pick up the slack or something has to suck... well that would be the love of my life moving 20 hours away to Wyoming for a new job.... yeah... I said Wyoming. Ah, so much has happened but a speedy update.. two weeks ago I went to Newton and met some of his friends, watched him play football, saw his high school, and met pretty much all of his family...which was a fairly big step since other than high school girlfriends I was the first one that he brought home..so made me happy and feel special :) But yea.. then a week later, find out "really really bad news" and yeah..so here I am at home in Loogootee and he is in Casper... way way way too far. I added a countdown widget on my mac.. so right now 98 days and I will see him. It would be amazing if it was before, if not then for sure I will see him for Spring Break, I am planning on flying out there if I can get everything settled right. But, I am definitely kind of down about him moving, but I of course want what is best for him and am going to support him in anything he does. I sent with him some pics and goodies, so hopefully he won't forget about me haha :) But, we actually decided to not break up and are going to do a long distance relationship..which at first I was kind of worried just of how it would work and everything and after we talked about it.. I felt so much better. I dont have a single doubt in my mind that it won't work out and it has made me appreciate so much that I trust him 100% .. it's also made me realize how much I care about him, which I am absolutely crazy about him..I've definitely fallen for him. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met, he's perfect for me... I definitely feel like we "mesh" well together (clueless couldnt have said it better, ha) so I am looking forward to our skype dates, cheesy texts, nightly phone goodnight calls, and countdowns until I see him.. we're willing to try anything to make this work, and thankfully we are both in it 100% so it's going to work out.. hopefully we also figure out something to be together in the future..wherever that may be. But for now, I'll take a spring break trip to Wyoming and a month there this summer.
Well, I am going to try to play Sims 3 on my computer if it won't be lame.. but that's an understatement since I always have trouble playing it on here.. not sure why. Don't really feel like switching mom computers just to play. I should be a good student and take my psych quiz that's due tomorrow by 5, but I'd rather be immature and lay in bed, jam out to music and play sims :)
So yeah.. not the most entertaining speech.. but pretty sure no one even reads my blog.. haha.. ohhh well!
Loveeee Ali Kate
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