Hey Finals Week!

So, the last time I wrote I was having a hard time with everything. I wasn't feeling all that well along with a mix of other things. Well a lot has changed since then thankfully :) I hung out with Jillian all weekend, which was a fun time. We decided to rearrange the room, it had been about 2 months so we were long overdue! ha. I like our setup, I think she does too :) Also participated in Angelfest on Friday at the Boys and Girls Club, LAE had a table. Overall that event went well, we got done really early though, about an hour and a half but I think the kids there were happy and everything so that's what matters! It was definitely a great feeling to see the kids smiling and having fun and being able to get Christmas gifts that they might have not been able to get otherwise.

Yesterday, J and I went to a fitness class since it is free fitness week, and well wow.. It was called Extreme Fitness, and BOOOOY did they mean it! I was actually only able to do it for 30 minutes before I felt like I was going to pass out and I couldn't breathe and then my wonderful roomie checked on me to make sure I was okay and got our stuff and then left early with me. I guess they base their class off of something called Crossfit...well unless you're hardcore I don't recommend this! It hurts sooo bad just to move, lol. I can't tell you the last time I have had this much pain in my butt, thighs, legs, etc. I mean no pain, no gain... but I wouldn't mind being able to walk normally, lol. So, I slept with a heating pad last night and did stretches before I went to bed and when I got up this morning. I know J made a special trip to walmart to buy a heating pad and some bengay. Considering getting out my bengay, but that would basically consist of dipping my lower half of my body in it, ha.

I planned on going to all about arms today, but decided I was awfully sore and didn't know if I could actually do anything, so took today off. Tomorrow they have another session, so I am going to do the all about arms then, and then there is also Fab Ride, which I really want to do because it is 45 minutes of spin and 15 minutes of an abdominal workout. Then tomorrow evening is Midnight Breakfast, which as always it is a ritual to have some fun before going, so I'm looking forward to sailing the seas with my fab roomie ;) Andd Wednesday is Work Lunch, Courts final, anddd Yoga! Thursday I am taking a day off if I don't find a class I would like to do, and my research methods final is that day and i'll need to pack and load up my car :) Thennn friday at a dreaded 7:30 a.m. is my corrections final, and well I really need to do well on that one.. my grade isn't so hot in there.

Also, got a few LAE things taken care of. Got my papers together for reimbursement from Angelfest, got the password changed for our e-mail that we were all unaware of! Found e-mails from 2002 not opened, geeeeeze! So I deleted everything and responded to someone that e-mailed from last semester about joining. Lastly, I came across an oldddd LAE website from 2002, had that deleted and am going to recreate a site for the new year. So we are all slowly making progress. It is just hard when people haven't passed down knowledge from a long time ago, which of course I am thankful of what was passed down. Also found out that our wonderful president will be with us for fall 2011, so yay for having her help :)

SO! I mentioned in the beginning how my week had turned around tremendously from in the past and well, here's the main reason :) Well first of all, I haven't talked to Trevor very much lately. He has been very busy with work. He worked for 35 hours one day, two day jobs, etc. etc. So, kind of makes it hard when I don't always talk to him, at first I was like ohhh my gosh, he's not talking to me, lol then finally I heard from him and he told me he was still working, I couldn't believe it. So got a little freaked out, then I was fine after that haha.. I know I know, shouldn't have even worried. But, we skyped Friday night for like 15 minutes, which made me happy to see his smiling handsome face! But on Sunday night, I became the happiest girl in the whole entire world! Trevor told me that he had came up with an idea, and that was to save up some money with his current job in WY for about a year AND THEN, move back to Indy and go to school..AHHHHH! :):):):):) Well, where do I even begin for why this is so absofreakinglutely amazing!!!!?!! 1) he'd be back in indiana 2) he'd be in the same state as me 3) no more long distance relationship 4) only a year of long distance as opposed to until I am done with college 5) I don't have to consider relocating in the future if it works out, which of course it will 6) he's going to get his degree, which I am very happy about, so so proud of him! and most importantly 7) the love of my life is no longer going to be 1500 miles away from me and it's going to be absolutely amazing when he comes back :):):) YAY times a trillion. Lol, he asked if that made me happy and I said actually, you have absolutely not idea babe...... and he said yay, it makes him happy too :) SO, this is amazing sign for the future and everything in general. This news definitely could not have come at a better time with finals, etc. coming up. It definitely gave me that extra boost of energy and good spirits to finish out the semester!

Well, it's almost 10:30 and I am going to find something to do, probably not productive because that is what tomorrow is going to be for :) Personality psychology final out of the way, three more to go!

With love,
the happiest & luckiest girl in the world
<3 miss ali kate

I love my trevor lowell :)

going through the motions..

so the rest of the week did not go ANY better. i went to one class, which was on tuesday and that is only because i had to turn in my paper, then i went back to my dorm to grab a snack and freshen up since i was up until 4:30 am writing the paper.. then went to work. after that i pretty much laid in bed all day wednesday and thursday. So one class, one work hour ... talk about blowing off this week. I had absolutely zero motivation to leave the dorm, i do not want to be at school anymore, I am tired of it. I am burnt out. I am exhausted. I am frustrated. I am all of these emotions and I just need a break. I came home again this weekend..two weekends in a row. I, of course, would come home next weekend but have some events for LAE going on..and then it's going to be finals week, thankfully... so kind of bittersweet.

i told trevor i was mad at him earlier today.. because i don't keep anything from him and i was just having a moment of weakness.. i was crying on the way home thinking how unhappy i am right now and how it wouldn't have been that way if we wouldn't have moved.. but then again for all i know, maybe something would've happened here that would've made me unhappy.. i honestly don't know. and i love seeing his face and talking to him on skype, but honestly..it leaves me even more empty and sad after we get done talking. And he knows this and was like well, maybe we shouldnt talk anymore? And being the train wreck I currently am, I automatically thought he meant in general, as in a break up, and started to cry.. of course he caught on real quick how i took that statement. he needed to go to bed since he is on call 7 days a week, but after he saw i was upset.. and even though i was like go to bed, it's fine.. he told me no, that he wanted to talk to me...which i love about him. He never just lets it go, he can tell when i'm upset and doesn't ever leave us being on bad terms when we are done talking.

I really wish I knew what the answer is. I know if God wanted me to know what the answer was, he would be telling me somehow, someway. But, in the meantime...I am just wanting my space from everyone. I want to be with the people I love, my family. And Jillian has been great too, I couldn't ask for a better person to share a little jail cell with. She probably wants to slap me sometimes for my stupidity, excessive use of the word trevor, and quirky habits..but hey, where would her comic show come from if i wasn't making an idiot out of myself 24/7? lol She informed me that if I had a comic show that she would watch it, lol, then again I might need an audience bigger than one! ha.

Well, I wrote more than I meant to.. but I am going to put a tv show or movie on, maybe grab a drink and relax.. kind of tired, so probably fall asleep soon..but doubtful since for some odd reason I can never sleep when i am at home.. might have to get out the excedrin pm, for all the crying i do it's no wonder i have such a headache all the time. YAY for being with my amazing sister tomorrow, vegging out, putting up christmas, writing my courts paper, which i could do without that!, and watching a few movies, going the distance included.

my theme song from now until... well when i decide i don't need it anymore...
"space" by something corporate.

<3 ali kate.

Oh, and it's official.
I love my trevor.
My trevor loves me.
Yes, he dropped the L-bomb :)
About damn time, right?? haha.

So much harder..

So, I should be finishing up my paper but...I can't stop crying. I should hold this all in and suck it up.. but I need to get it out. I have been so caught up in being sad, being happy, being every possible emotion and .. ughh, I cannot take it anymore. I do not want to be 1500 miles away from trevor, I do not want to be 3 hours away from my family... I do not want to do it anymore. I want to be at home. I am half tempted to call him and talk to him, but he went to sleep and it's not like it would do anything or he could say anything.. maybe having a video chat wasn't the best idea.. now I am all upset. UGH, why why why does everything FINALLY feel like it's going great, and then it all gets pulled out from underneath me.. I am sooo frustrated, I think my body temperature is raised like no other..

I know no one said it was going to be easy, but i don't quite get it.. and right now i am not looking for some bs reason.. b/c it doesnt change anything. I guess I will be done ranting, throwing a fit..complaining, doing what i do best. finishing this stupid paper and going to bed, or maybe showering and going to bed if there is any time left.. so over this.. over it over it over it!!

Woah, November Already? Thanksgiving Over??

Alright, so I've not written in forever but life is busy..so don't expect so much from me.
Thanksgiving is pretty much over, it was a decent day. I always enjoy spending time with the family and hearing how everyone has been. Went to French Lick for lunch w/ Gma, Carl, and Mom-- lindsey and john were supposed to go but my poor darling seeeester has a horrible case of strep :( But then after that mom and I walked around to some shops and checked stuff out.. afterwards we went to Michelle's to play games and visit, ate dinner, and hung out some more. Got to see my babygirl again, which of course made me happy :) The day before I got to be Emma's Special Person for Kindergarten at Special Person Day! Once again, Lindsey was supposed to go but since she was sick, I covered for her! And I guess Emmy didn't know I was going to be home from college either, so was excited to know I was going to be home and go..so that made me happy :)

The weather has been so nasty out! I am normally pretty flexible with weather.. it's just kind of like it is what it is.. but since I am at home, I don't have any of my clothes that I normally would have.. like sweatshirts, rain boots, bubble umbrella, etc. so I have been on the struggle bus! It was sleeting on our way home, but thinking that way turn to snow? Not totally sure about the rest of the weekend, I am just in hopes it's not nasty out when I go back to campus.. which may play a factor in if I go back Sunday night or Monday morning.

School is going alright.. I am kind of in that "I'm ready to pull my hair out" part of the semester! Definitely can't believe it's almost over.. basically have two weeks of classes and then it's finals week! It's exciting, yet stressful thinking that thats all we have left! I have felt like I have tried a lot harder with school, but I don't feel like my grades are showing it so much which is really frustrating. A lot of my teachers grade kind of hard this semester, plus we haven't had a lot of grades. My favorite class is Courts, but she is very literal and strict when it comes to her guidelines and ways of doing things..which is fine but for some reason I have been having trouble getting the format down properly for her extra credit... so I have spent time writing 2 2 page papers that could've given me an extra 5 points a piece.. but I didn't get it because I put one extra line in.. I guess I messed it up, but I don't know.. so so soooo frustrating! On the bright side, I was really worried about my two tests that I had just taken, and I found out that I got an 81% on my Corrections Test, which I will take a B. I blame the low B b/c my teacher always gives us the essay questions a few days before...normally 6 and we study all of them, well this time she gave us 4 and not until literally TEN hours before the test. It's like excuse me??? I was SO mad. But whatever, I'll take my B-. As for my research methods test, 82% Baby, wooooohooooo! I couldn't believe it, I was SO excited. I was afraid I failed, so that was the most pleasant surprise ever! So Right now, I'm slightly frustrated with my grades.. but we have finals still and a lot of them have either a big paper due or project as well so I'm not freaking out yet, lol. If I figured right, with a dropped test in Corrections & Courts I have a C in both of those, a B in Research Methods and a B+ in Personality Psychology.. I am really hoping that I can get an A in Research Methods and Personality Psych, and a B in both Corrections and Courts, but we will see. Fingers crossed!!

Well, despite all the good news with school... that obviously means that something else has to pick up the slack or something has to suck... well that would be the love of my life moving 20 hours away to Wyoming for a new job.... yeah... I said Wyoming. Ah, so much has happened but a speedy update.. two weeks ago I went to Newton and met some of his friends, watched him play football, saw his high school, and met pretty much all of his family...which was a fairly big step since other than high school girlfriends I was the first one that he brought home..so made me happy and feel special :) But yea.. then a week later, find out "really really bad news" and yeah..so here I am at home in Loogootee and he is in Casper... way way way too far. I added a countdown widget on my mac.. so right now 98 days and I will see him. It would be amazing if it was before, if not then for sure I will see him for Spring Break, I am planning on flying out there if I can get everything settled right. But, I am definitely kind of down about him moving, but I of course want what is best for him and am going to support him in anything he does. I sent with him some pics and goodies, so hopefully he won't forget about me haha :) But, we actually decided to not break up and are going to do a long distance relationship..which at first I was kind of worried just of how it would work and everything and after we talked about it.. I felt so much better. I dont have a single doubt in my mind that it won't work out and it has made me appreciate so much that I trust him 100% .. it's also made me realize how much I care about him, which I am absolutely crazy about him..I've definitely fallen for him. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met, he's perfect for me... I definitely feel like we "mesh" well together (clueless couldnt have said it better, ha) so I am looking forward to our skype dates, cheesy texts, nightly phone goodnight calls, and countdowns until I see him.. we're willing to try anything to make this work, and thankfully we are both in it 100% so it's going to work out.. hopefully we also figure out something to be together in the future..wherever that may be. But for now, I'll take a spring break trip to Wyoming and a month there this summer.

Well, I am going to try to play Sims 3 on my computer if it won't be lame.. but that's an understatement since I always have trouble playing it on here.. not sure why. Don't really feel like switching mom computers just to play. I should be a good student and take my psych quiz that's due tomorrow by 5, but I'd rather be immature and lay in bed, jam out to music and play sims :)

So yeah.. not the most entertaining speech.. but pretty sure no one even reads my blog.. haha.. ohhh well!

Loveeee Ali Kate

Hola!

Hello,

I haven't written for almost a week, and decided I need to talk about some things and get them off my chest!

Last Thursday I went to my WW meeting and lost 3 lbs, so I was super excited about that, sure I had gained 2 lbs last time so I actually have only lost about 1 lb, but it was still a good thing to hear. I worked really hard last week. I was all excited for this week and to continue losing weight, but a lot of things were going on and I kind of got stressed and haven't been using my points system. I have been really tired and not wanting to take the time to go downstairs and checking out all of the kitchenware, etc. Plus, I would have to go back to the store and get more items to cook, which I don't have the money to do so. So, after all the eating I have done, I am probably going back to where I was last week, which is only going to frustrate me.

Last friday, I stayed in and cleaned the dorm up a bit. J went to Canada and Wes went to Michigan. I originally planned on going home, but then with Trevor having off Saturday, Sunday, Monday I really didn't want to miss out on all the time together. Saturday afternoon he came over and we hung out - ended up going out to eat at Outback Steakhouse and then to the Indy Screampark, got some movies and ice cream and hung out at the dorm all evening. I felt bad, it was an expensive date night - but I had a blast. The Indy Screampark was a good time, it was cold outside and muddy and $50 for both of us .. ehh, but it was so much fun. The next day we watched movies, went and got some Chinese food, went to the mall and some stores (his idea!! :)) and then of course, we haaaad to work out. So we went to the new rec center and spent an hour and thirty minutes there!!! AH! lol. I am still hurting, ha. played basketball, Ran a mile, did some stretches, some ab workouts, lunges, etc. It was like having my own personal trainer, it was cool! It was nice to have someone push me though and show me the proper way to use a lot of the workout equipment, normally when i am by myself I don't feel like I am doing stuff right and fly through the workouts. After that it was time for the Bears Game vs NY Giants, which sadly the Bears totally bombed out and lost! Cutler was sacked a record amount of time and ended up with a concussion, I don't know what the deal was. Then the next day he went home, which of course I didn't like, lol. But I really enjoyed spending two day s straight with him which never happens.

On Monday, I had a couple of housing appointments to go to - Wes and I went to one on Riverside, which we ruled out and then we went to the one on Dicks, which we loved. I then ended up not having night class that night, which was great! I was able to spend a lot of the evening studying for my Corrections test and we made dinner - Turkey Burgers, Tofu Noodles (baaaad idea), and steamed veggies. overall, meal was pretty good, ha. I ended up staying there because I was really afraid with how tired I was that I would not get out of bed for my test this morning, which I couldn't afford to miss. Woke up to it being freezing outside, literally. I love cold weather, but when I have the proper attire of course which was not the case. My sweatshirt just did not cut it! Took the test, not totally sure how it went. I recognized it all, but i don't know.. guess we will see when the gradebook score comes out.

As for what else is going on, just kind of stressed this week with the two tests, not getting paid until friday which still won't be enough, but it will help. I was thinking of ways to make money today - I am going to go to coinstar, plato's closet, and maybe find some things to sell on cragislist, as well as help clean at Wes's apartment. It will all add up, but then I have a lot of other expenses this month for LAE stuff and gas. After speaking with Lori and her husband today, they made me feel a lot better about the whole renting process and monetary arrangements. They seem to be aware of how things work for college students and have given several options if some of us are on financial aid, post dated checks, etc. So I was pleasantly surprised with that. They have both been super great, I really like them. I am in hopes that everything works out. We thought we had someone, but that kind of fell through..but J loved the house, so right now Me, Wes, and J are on board. Wes's good friend Grant is actually very interested, so they are going tomorrow to look at the place..if Grant likes it, we are going to be ready to sign on Friday, which makes me happy. Right now we are only competing for the house with the current tenants, who also have three people and are just looking for a fourth, so the sooner the better. I really don't think we will find a better deal and nicer house on campus that has yet to be rented. Prime location - It will actually be closer for me to go to work than where I am now, which is awesome :) I will keep you all posted with that, I am really excited. I wish it was all done and completed and it was next year, but it will come soon enough I guess. I am pretty excited thats for sure!!

I mentioned being super tired lately, not sure what the deal is. I have been a little bit more social lately and doing things, plus with the weather getting cooler I think it is all contributing, but then again I may be getting sick.. I am just not sure right now. I woke up Sunday or Monday morning with a sore throat, which I wasn't digging.

So, I am glad Tuesday is already over! Wednesday is going to be a day of working from 11-1:30, and studying for my research methods test all day and night because this is supposed to be the hardest test of the semester in that class, go figure. I may even work out at the gym, I shouldn't be as sore tomorrow! On Thursday, I plan on going to my 240, 220 to take test, then I don't have to work but have a PDS (Professional Development Seminar) for Criminal Justice at 2, where there will be a speaker coming to discuss Forensic Autopsy, which may be a little graphic, but I am excited like the criminal justice freak that I am! Ha. After that, is the CJC Wing Ding aka all the wings and soft drinks on the department of CJC at Muglys you can eat, which I was never able to attend last year, so I am excited to go with Brooke and Katie. After hopefully not devouring TOO many wings, I am going to WW and probably seeing a disappointing number. Normally I would be done for the week, but I had to finagle my schedule around a bit, and I now work from 10:45-5 on Friday, then fingers crossed will hopefully be able to sign for the dicks place :):):) But, I am trying not to get too excited just b/c I have had a lot of disappoint the last couple of weeks.

Overall, things are going well at school. I enjoy my classes, sometimes hard to focus, but grades are a lot better than last year. I am looking forward to getting this week out of the way and seeing the boy again. He doesn't have a day off until Sunday though. This weekend is homecoming and J and I are going to go to some of the festivities and have some girl time, which I am excited about and need! Then after getting through next week - which includes another test, I get to go home! I will only be home for Saturday and Sunday, but still! My lovely seeeester's party is on Saturday and I am bringing Trevor!! I am sooo sooo excited for him to meet Lindsey and the Davis crew and everyone. We are going on 2 months next week I do believe, not that I've kept track or anything haha. But, I am hoping Lindsey likes him, because that is important. I am really hoping that she does because I am absolutely crazy about him. I guess we have been talking for about four months now, and it is more like a grown up relationship, and serious...which I like. I was so over high school drama, etc. and was on the verge of giving up and then received a pleasant surprise. I hope everything continues to go as well as it has - which this morning I woke up with a nice text that had a voice message, telling me good morning and to have a good day. It is the sweet things like that that makes me melt. Excuse me for being sappy, but hey it's my blog :) And, I have been thinking and thinking lately how incredibly happy that I am and that I am looking forward to all the great times to come. I couldn't ask for a better person, friend, and boyfriend.

I have always been worried about getting hurt. I took my first break up pretty badly in High School and that kind of set the tone for the rest of my relationships. Between those unsuccessful relationships and seeing other relationships around me not always work out..it was somewhat hard to be hopeful. But after realizing that from each relationship you learn something and you take what mistakes you make and learn from them for your next relationship make you realize what you have when you finally have it and if it's what you truly want. I have always envisioned this perfect person, needing this, this, and this.. but that is unrealistic. I just need someone that is perfect for me, and I am perfect for them.

In the beginning, I was really worried about being led on and getting lied too after some previous assholes this summer and in general, but over the course of the four months, I have came to realize that I am with an incredible guy, that sure we have our differences on stuff and there are days that no matter what he says I take it badly and I cry and he laughs and apologizes, days when I am grumpy, and when he is grumpy, that it still works. I totally get it hasn't been that long, but I guess I just needed to get this off of my chest as opposed to dumping all this information on him, don't know if it's quite that time yet. I guess, I don;t know totally how to feel or what to think, but I know that it is good and I am very happy.. My sister always could point out who were "fillers" and who were actually promising guys, I am thinking she will share the same opinion as I do - a keeper! :) I can't say I have ever felt like I have been with someone that I feel like I can kind of teach them about things and they can teach me. I have always wanted that though, where they were more the caring type that took the time to for example, teach me how football works, working out, etc and making plans to go places, see things, learn stuff... I think this is how a good, healthy relationship is supposed to work. Oh, and I think he's gorgeous! Hahaha. As mom always says, they have to flip your switch, which I will place a big check mark in that box. I am definitely falling :) .. fingers crossed someone will be there to catch me! <3


Well, this was a super long post. I had a lot to say and get out. Ah, I feel better. Well, I am thinking about going to bed, or do something other than write more. I am pretty tired, need some quality sleep tonight.

Well loveeeeee you kiddos.

p.s. Can't wait for my good friend Christina to have her baby boy! Fingers crossed for this week. I know she is going to be an amazing momma! Best of luck sweetie!

Slight Setback

Hello lovelies!

I feel like i haven't wrote very much lately..but things have been somewhat hectic lately. Noelle wasn't able to go to the WW meeting on Thursday, but I decided to go by myself anyways. I was all excited to go, but once I weighed in..I was kind of disappointed. Instead of losing weight, I actually gained 1.8 lbs putting me at a whopping 180 lbs, which I absolutely hated reading on my chart. I was disappointed with myself, but I had to remember that I did not start WW until Monday..I had eaten right before the meeting and didn't go pee, lol. SO! Not that that's an excuse, but it's not the end of the world for my going to WW. I shared with Trevor that I was kinda disappointed and so on, he was really supportive and told me that that happens a lot of the times and it's no need to worry..Just drink lots of water. So, I was happy to hear that from him. It's kind of difficult when we eat sometimes, because like he pointed out..I'm trying to lose weight and he's trying to gain weight. It's all a trial and error process though. With that being said, I got my new tracker book and have high hopes for this coming week. Today I decided to use my excess points since i was in noblesville with trevor. I hadn't planned out my points and wanted to enjoy my food. I am sure I will be dumbfounded when I see the points I have used, but it is what it is at this point. I had an amazing time with Trevor today. We had originally planned on going to the zoo, but the weather wasn't exactly in our favor so we decided to find something else to do! We ended up finding a putt putt place, but I felt like we were pedophiles in a little kid place, hahaha..so I google mapped another place and we headed there. Of course, my pick was awesome :) We went to a place called Noblesville golf and batting center. I had a blast! First we decided to do the batting cages - There was Softball- Slow pitch and fast pitch. Little League Baseball and Fast pitch baseball. It was pretty comical doing it and watching each other, it was clear that it had been awhile. Of course, Mr. Athletic did pretty well as always. After that, we decided to switch it up and go to the hitting range. Words do not express how horrible I am at swinging a golf club to hit the ball. I tried on my own for awhile, then after laughing for awhile trevor came over and tried to teach me how to stand, swing, etc. It helped, but I was still horrible. He played golf for a year in high school, perhaps sometimes Happy Gilmore style as he said, but still counts, lol. It's funny because no matter what sport we play, he looks like he knows exactly what he's doing, etc. Definitely very athletic, which I like =] After that we decided to head back to the house and chillaxed for awhile. Eventually we decided to head back to town and find something to do! After driving around for awhile, I reminded him of a pizza place that he said was super good.. it's called Monacal's .. well, it was amazing!! I definitely recommend going here. It's on the main drag in noblesville right off of 69. The service, food, atmosphere, everything was great. Kind of loud with the little kids but not unbearable. After that, we went to my all-time favorite placeeee, Bill's Pet Store! We went and saw all the cute puppies, cats, etc etc. I love going there.

Trevor at the Fastpitch Baseball

Well, now I am back in Muncie. I have to volunteer in the morning at the Habitat for Humanity Store for LAE. It's from 9-3..I'm hoping it won't be horrible..but I know it's going to be a long day..just hopes that it doesn't drag too bad. I plan on coming back to the dorm and hanging out, working out, then doing a psych quiz. Probably a little bit of laundry and cleaning the dorm up a bit. I sooo cannot wait because on Sunday I get to go back to my wonderful boyfriend's house to hang out. Hopefully do something fun, I'm just happy to see him twice in one weekend. Lately, I've not been able to see him very much because of his work schedule and my schedule..so kind of sucks.

Well, I originally planned on going home this coming weekend, but Trevor has off Saturday, Sunday, Monday which NEVER happens..so even though he told me I should go home that it was fine..I really wanted to spend a couple days with him. It's been awhile. And he is very possibly going to be working full-time soon, so it will be back to hanging out less. Sooo, I may not be going home now after all. And then sadly, my darling seeeester decided to move back her fall party, so I of course will still be there but not sure about the boy. Which, hopefully he can come because I am really looking forward to him meeting Lindsey, John, Emma, Michelle, and everyone since I talk about them all the time. Fingers crossed! Of course, you'll think he's great..he passed mom's inspection but now it's time for the sisters! It's weird, normally I try out Lindsey first but this time..if it works out with the fall party, we will have been dating for 4 months and in a relationship for two. Kind of weird that I talk about him a lot she's never met him, and esp b/c she's such a big part of me.

Well, I have to volunteer bright and early, so I better get to climbing up in my bed and setting the sonic bomb! I feel like I talked about the boy a ton in this post, but I just got back from Noblesville so I'm still =].. I honestly can't say the last time I have been this happy. He is pretty much everything I've ever wanted in a relationship..so I definitely think he's a keeper :)

Cheers to a good week in WW and working out!
Night my darlings!
<3 happiest girl in the world.

Tuesday!

Hello wonderful followers :)

Today started out rough, when I woke up it was pitch black out and 6:30 am, soo I was really regretting this whole 8am..but when I finally got ready was able to leave the dorm plenty early to go to Noyer and get me some breakfast and watch two and a half men before Corrections class..hmm, def not digging the teacher still, but oh well. I survived, then it was time for CJC 220, we did a team exercise which was kind of hard. The prof doesn't explain things very well, so it made it rather difficult but luckily I have a good group, Zeb and Katie. Afterwards I was walking to go to work and found out my 2 was cancelled soo that made me super happy! Work was easy, then went back to the dorm to finish watching a couple shows before nap time! Eventually had LAE, which went better than I thought it would. I really was kind of worried how that was going to turn out. But, I tried to interact and mention ideas that I had been thinking about. Then it was yummy Subway time, safe sex bingo! It was such a fun time, we were laughing. Wes won bingo right away, had to yell "orgasm" instead of Bingo, it was priceless! They were like "we have an orgasm over here!!" Ohh dang, then they gave out freebies of stuff and some Cirilla's coupons. I actually won Bingo towards the end, but modest me just pulled the guy to the side and asked him to check my card, lol. And i won, woohoo. The room was packed, they also played a few other games - condom races and some quotes from movies. Overall, it was a fun night full of laughs. After that, it was time to work out, luckily Wes has been great and has been my work out partner, so we did 2 walking laps, 2 running laps, 5 minutes of rowing, and some ab exercises. I am def thinking my abs and arms are going to be sore!! I am really hoping the more I run, the less out of breath I will feel. The night before when we ran I was sooo out of breath, really wishing for my inhaler. I've also done fairly well with not drinking pop, today I decided to have some just to prevent a headache and to slowly ween myself off of it. I'm not really expecting any results tomorrow at the weigh in at WW, just b/c I did start on Monday. I'm excited to go back, as well as decide if I want to do the online version, as well as the weekly weigh ins.. Whatever is financially best, as well as giving the best results.

After a late night trip to Walmart, messing with people on the PA system, and watching Detroit 1-8-7, it was a good time! I am hoping to find my dad's CB radio when I go home and hook that up into my car and get a PA Speaker, I am thinking it will be a blast. Which of course, mom told me that I'm not allowed to use it when I have my lovely seester with me, which I mean I dont totally blame her, BUT I think it would be beyond hilarious and we'd definitely only speak out the truth =] SNAGGLEEEEE TOOTH [okay, excuse my lapse of mean-ness, but it was beyond necessary] =] Well, I am exhausted! But I figured I should update, I will post tomorrow about my weight watchers meeting and how that goes. I don't think Noelle has been doing the points, but that's okay. I'm sure she will eventually get it going, hopefully she is still planning on going with me tomorrow though at 6! I am excited to see what week two brings, especially with me trying it out for a couple days prior. It really seems like WW is popular right now! jillian is doing it, and Kassey is as well. I am really proud of everyone for working out and trying to get in shape! I know I fell so much better when I am active! Also, awesome job to my friend Brooke for losing weight! Keep it up babe! =]

Well, I best be getting off of here!

Have some facebooking to catch up on and need to head back to the dorm and shower soon! Hope everyone had a great Tuesday and enjoy hump day tomorrow! BOOOOOO on hot weather though!!

<3 you all.
ali kate.

Hunger

Okay, so I am starving. I have used up all 28 points and 3 of my 35 points. I definitely need a snack and some water after working out! Starvation is kicking in, ah so frustrating. Sitting in this class bored is not helping my case. I really need to find some healthy grab and go snacks since I like to snack a lot. Okay, short and pointless post to share that I am so so hungry, despite having dinner about three hours ago. It is such a mind thing..I am only hungry because I am bored and because I know I shouldn't eat. Sooo frustrating, hopefully soon that feeling will subside soon! Any tips from those who when they originally began losing weight felt that they were more hungry? I need some ideas. I must not be eating enough filling foods.. Any tips would help :)

xoxo,
ali kate

Hello!

Hola,

I doubt I even have any followers, or that many will even read this. Kudos to any of you that do though. I am hoping to update this a fair amount just to get things off of my chest and to keep everyone updated if they choose to actually read this thing.

Well, as of right now I am all caught up on my homework, I could of course study some or read ahead but I like the feeling right now of not having something to do so I will probably keep enjoying this moment. I did my first Case study for personality psychology last night, it's due tonight. It was actually a lot of fun to do because it was basically analyzing this girls personality and why she is the way she is in different circumstances. It kind of made me feel like I was judging this fake person, but when you think about it, it's just scientific-ish? I had to use a specific personality theory, it was the big five. I know later on the case studies will be more difficult, but currently I enjoy them.

This week is going to be very busy, I have a lot of things to accomplish before the weekend..but that is just the way it is. I'm at work until 5, then my chauffeur is coming to get me in his big red taxi -which i was welcomed this morning by it along with his new PA system, rather comical i thought. Can't wait to test it out at the scramble light and other random places, will give some fun times for sure. Then, I have a short break and I need to head to the north quad for personality psych, class until probably 8:30-have to turn in the case study, then she will open up the quiz..it's due friday. Last week, I got an 80% on it..wasn't as good as what I wanted btu luckily she gave us an opportunity to get four points of extra credit so that was exactly what i needed to get a 100% in the class. I am in hopes she updates gradebook soon, I would love to see that B- turn into an A! After class, I am going to work out for about 45 minutes with wes- we plan on running on the treadmill, track, and doing either the bike/elliptical each for 15 min a piece. I figure even if I don't spend a ton in the gym, a little is better than none just to help out a bit and get myself more in shape so maybe I won't feel like I can't breathe half the time. It's frustrating, I am not THAT out of shape and i always feel out of breath, it's ridiculous. I may have to start using my inhaler more often until I can get my breathing caught back up. Then also, new two and a half men starts tonight! But I'm not sure if I will have the time to watch it, unless its when I am working out. Then I'ma go back to the dorm, shower, get my stuff ready, mess around online and go to bed!

Tuesday is jam packed as always - Corrections @ 8, Research Methods @ 9:30, Work @ 11, the debate of going to anthropology at 12:30-may take my sister's advice and just go then do other homework or something..Idk yet.. hate the class, so hot in the room and it's packed, the material is boring, i dont know, just not my cup of tea.. not that i like any tea, ha. And then I have my favorite class of the day!!!- Courts at 2:00, where I will be turning in my 2 page extra credit paper for 5 points. I ended up not doing the best on my first courts test- I got a 74% but like she said now we are all on the same page and this score can easily go away [we get to drop our lowest test grade] so that's a good thing to keep in mind, and esp now if i totally bomb a test, this test grade isn't absolutely horrible so if I needed to drop a lower score it wouldn't be the end of the world, but of course I plan on doing better =] Now that I've seen her study guides, I think I am going to really take all the info she gives on them and put them on notecards and have someone test me, b/c everything she said that was going to be on there, was.. so glad to know she is straight to the point, no BS. After I get done with class around 3, I dont have anything until 5, I have LAE General meeting which I am honestly dreading. I am kind of frustrated with that whole situation. Everything was going fine, and then got an e-mail that I know was meant to be tactful and to the point, but instead it just now makes things be on a bad note..it's kind of like why would I want to be super involved now after a crappy e-mail? I really felt like I was doing a decent job- I have been researching information and staying on my designated task. I haven't been to any LAE events outside of the meetings, but I've had prior engagements and so on. Especially this last saturday, I could've went to the game and helped pass out but it was at tailgating, several hours before the game..I'm not old enough to drink, and no that's not stopped me before, but I am not going to go out and publicly drink when there are excise and so on.. Plus, I was at home anyways then met Trevor's friends - Dan and his girlfriend Tabitha-They were both really nice. Well after Lae, I am going to din din with wes, then to this Safe Sex Bingo that Jillian is working so that should be comical, figured could enjoy the laughs.. afterwards its time to work on my fitness a bit!

The rest of the week there isn't anything major going on. Wednesday night at 6:00, Noelle and I are going to our second Weight Watchers Meeting. I enjoyed going last week, I know I am not going to have a dramatic change overnight, but it's time to get my butt in gear and start making better choices so I won't be as tired and will have more energy..Plus, I'd prefer not to gain ANY MORE weight.. I would be absolutely mortified with myself if I gained anymore.. just because I would be unhappy and disappointed with myself, not because of any other factors.

My starting weight is: 178.4 lbs.

I'm not sure how long it is going to take me to start losing weight, or even reach my goal weight, but it's worth a shot at this lifestyle change. I needed something that it easy to throw into my everyday life, and this seemed to be the best choice for Noelle and I, so we think! We are both starting out at 28 WW points, once we start losing we will adjust our WW points. I would love to be close to my goal weight before Christmas, so that is my goal! That is 3 months, I think I can do it so fingers crossed! I would love everyones support though - helping me make good choices and not sabotaging my dining choices!! haha. So, I am going to make mini goals for myself and reward myself with little things here and there, of course not with food. My first goal is 5% of my body weight which is 9 lbs. My next goal is 10% of my body weight which is 17 lbs. and so on.. my final weight loss goal is to be 140 lbs. I would like to be able to fluctuate between 135-145 though, give a little bit of play room, but no more and no less. So All in All, I am looking at roughly 40 lbs to shed. I don't want to set timelines for losing my weight though, I'd rather do lbs or percentages that way I won't be frustrated with myself as much. It will happen when it happens.

So far I've done good with eating. I ate a fiber one bar and had some water this morning for breakfast, for lunch I picked up a decent amount of items - small salad, new flatbread sandwich from tbell (7pts), 4oz cottage cheese, 4oz applesauce, and diet mt. dew. So it ended up equalling about 14 points, I need to break it down a bit more, but that was my rough addition I did earlier.

On top of all those things, I have really been wanting to have my rheumatologist appointment, but it is not until October. On Saturday my wrist started hurting pretty bad again. I wore my wrist brace two nights in a row, plan on keeping it on while I am in the dorm. I didn't do anything to hurt it, so kind of frustrating. I really hope I find something out at the rheumatologist, hopefully nothing bad. but some answers would be nice.

Well, I should probably get back to work. I've wrote a fair amount for my first blog entry. I am hoping to open this up to some more people to get readers..some of it is probably boring though. I am just writing to write.. but some others might find my life ever so interesting..

Well, Miss & Love you all!

<3ali kate